I was down 65 lbs. I had been working at it for 6 months and was on a roll. I went to my uncles wedding and ate some things I shouldnt have. I honestly know that it wasnt just the food that lead to my spiral out of control but it was significant enough that I remember the food and the feelings that swelled up inside. I was an absolute frenzied beast. Fuel that feeling by personal drama with the hubs and I am a wreck!
Fast forward 3 years and I am at it again. During that 3 years I helped mend a strained marriage, gained 75 pounds, changed jobs, sent both my babes to school, and found myself so unhappy and unhealthy that I was sure I would be on my deathbed by the time I was 40. I am 28 and have developed very poor health from my eating/lack of activity habits. I am now a type 2 diabetic with early symptoms and side effects. My liver is very toxic. My kidneys are strained. I suffer from headaches, backaches, foot aches, muscule cramps, huge mood swings, and extreme lethargy.
January 27th I weighed in at 252.4 that was down from the very highest that I have ever weighed in at 260.2!! I was at the point I was very very seriously thinking that I was going to get gastic bypass surgery due to my health and my lack of willingness to make the changes I needed to. I saw myself losing and gaining and losing and gaining myself to my early grave. I scared myself because I only knew how to lose then gain. The only time I have ever maintained was in the 250's. I stayed within 5 pounds for a whole year! Now maintenance has NEVER been something I ever have done so I just dont see myself doing this. Now I realize I must learn this step. It WILL take time. It WILL take an open mind. It WILL take patience.
If I am going to be around for my children I have to learn how to be a healthy person INSIDE as well as out.
Wow, I totally went on a tangent and I apologize. I just thought it would be good to share and have you share if you saw yourself getting out of control and how or if you brought it back.